Waiting for My Real Life to Begin

The life and times of a girl named Swishy.

Friday, July 24, 2009

Holy cannoli, it's been a while

You guys! I have had just the hardest time settling into a real blogging groove since I moved. Part of this is because my schedule is a little nutty sometimes, along with the fact that it takes awhile after you move to get settled and into a real routine again anyway (or at least that's what I keep telling myself ... I've FINALLY started going to the gym on a semi-regular basis, which is a minor miracle in itself). And part of this--I swear this is true--is my coffee shop. I am not even kidding. I wrote, like, 90 percent of my posts (and the vast majority of my emails, which is a whole other story) at my old coffee shop, and my computer and I seriously cannot function without it. I am adrift, like an upside-down beetle waving its little legs in the air in the middle of a swimming pool, without my corner booth and the soft lighting and the warm chocolate chip cookies. AND the CIA agent!

But I am going to work on it, I am, I really am. In the meantime, a little bit of this and a little bit of that from the last week or so:

* I have officially been sucked into Big Brother. I watched it for the first time last summer, because it was a diversion from life. I'm watching it this summer because I'm coming home late from work, I have Showtime now, which shows the live feed from midnight to 3 am every night, and I have no willpower. So what you have now is me, sitting here, watching a 30-year-old man pluck his eyebrows like it's high entertainment.

* I finished this book and started this book.

* I was having kind of a bad day the other day, the kind of day where you feel like a 13-year-old girl holed up in her bedroom, listening to angry/depressing/sad music, writing in her diary so hard the pen rips through the paper and feeling completely misunderstood, unappreciated and invisible to the entire world. And then my friend sent me a text. It said, "I like your face," and somehow it was enough to make the inner, melodramatic 13-year-old put down the pen and turn down the music a little, and the world didn't seem so bad anymore.

* I went to this guy's barbeque the other day. I went all by my lonesome, without a wingman, which, holy crap, can be a little scary, because I know him but not really anyone else who was there, and they all know each other and hang out all the time. Our other friend was supposed to go but he couldn't make it at the last minute, and I was like, OK, Swish, just be brave for an hour and then you can go home and watch Big Brother on the safety of your big, comfy couch. Three hours later, I was dancing in the living room to Kanye West (SANS ALCOHOL!).

* I came home the other day just dying, dying, dying, I was so tired, but it was SUCH a nice day out, so instead of falling on the couch and taking a nap I made myself go down the street to the park and lay on a blanket there instead. I put my iPod on shuffle ... and, you know, sometimes I think I have pretty consistent taste in music, but when you mix it all up, man, do you get a random playlist. A sample:

Where Does the Good Go, Tegan and Sara
Strawberry Fields Forever, The Beatles
King of Wishful Thinking, Go West
A Murder of One, Counting Crows
If You Wanna be My Lover, Spice Girls
The Joker, The Steve Miller Band
Chocolate, Snow Patrol
Meet Me Halfway, Kenny Loggins

OK, I have MEET ME HALFWAY sandwiched between Snow Patrol and the Spice Girls. I mean ... really.

* We had a big drama at work yesterday, followed by another big drama, and after 11 hours or whatever I came home just, like, drained. My friend IMed me, and was like, are you happy right now? And I said, oh, so-so, long day, but I'm OK. And he said, OK, I know how you can smile right this second. 100 percent, scientifically proven, guaranteed smile. And in my head, I was like, if you make a comment about sex I will kill you, but instead he sent me this. I didn't even need to listen to the whole thing, I smiled right away, and I hope it makes you smile too if you need it. Have a good weekend, everyone!


At 10:26 PM, Blogger Patti said...

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At 10:28 PM, Blogger Patti said...

omg, i am drunk from my walk....i deleted my post and this is what it said: i'm addicted too. but i read the spoilers online because i am too cheap to pay for the feeds. i just read that lydia is giving jessie sexy time with her hands.


At 2:12 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

hi... just dropping by!

At 4:59 AM, Blogger Barrie said...

I think of you as so brave that it's hard for me to imagine you having a hard time going to a barbecue because you don't know many people. So, I'm really happy that you ended up having a great time.

At 9:43 AM, Blogger Beth said...

I think you're very brave too...I don't think I could do what you did....just pick up and ove to the middle of nowhere , knowing no one....so, take your time getting back to blogging. But you DO have to get back to it, cuz I miss My Swishy so damn much!!!

At 2:53 PM, Blogger Kristabella said...

I have watched every season of Big Brother. I'm almost ashamed to admit that. Almost.

But I love getting people hooked on it. Like last night, I made my blogger friend watch it (she was staying at my place since her flight from BlogHer wasn't until this morning) and now she's hooked. She's like I LOVE BIG BROTHER!

At 11:21 PM, Blogger Mary Ann said...

I was so surprised to read that you had to make yourself go to that party. That sounds more like me than Swishy except, well, ok, I would not have gone. You're amazing.

You must find a new coffee shop! There's one out there that needs you. :)

At 12:32 AM, Blogger Stephanie said...

I love that Beach Boys song! Well I love the Beach Boys.

At 2:31 PM, Blogger Andie said...

my friend Heather & her husband Eric just recently got married and God ONly Knows was their first dance song!

At 10:11 PM, Blogger MaNiC MoMMy™ said...

I MISS YOU I MISS YOU I MISS YOu!!! Blogher is in NY next year -- should we go!?!? I need to read this but have to get the kids to bed, and I have an ear infection that busted open and bled the other night, and Mr. is out of town and it's CRAZY! But I still miss you! xoxoxo

At 12:36 PM, Blogger mcBlogger said...

Going to a party on your own is super brave. Bravo! Have you done a search around for a new coffee shop?


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